The birds and the bees

"All women become like their mothers. That is their tragedy. No man does. That's his." -Oscar Wilde, The Importance of Being Earnest

It has been a few weeks since my last post.  I'd like to think that I have good reason for it.  Lately all it feels like is we sleep, eat, work and do it all over again.  We are very happy with the direction our business is going with the latest addition of a very large account.  It takes all our time, but we work now so we can live how we want later.  Part of that motivation is to ensure a life we dream of for our family.

Cort and I have decided that we want to start our own family.  We want to have our own children.  We looked at a different options such as adoption or sperm donor and we have decided to use a sperm donor.  On the 24th of this month we had our first appointment with a fertility specialist.  Getting to that point wasn't easy.  We started with a phone call to my gynocologist to see if they would help us.  They said no and pointed us in a different direction.  After 4 or 5 different doctors we were finally given the name of Dr. Houlk in Pleasant Grove, Utah.  It was so comforting to call his office and have the whole staff be completely supportive and loving.  They seemed just as excited as us. 

The meeting with the doctor was very informative.  We basically had the "birds and bees" talk with him.  He explained that a normal, healthy womans chance at conceiving a baby is only 30%.  Thats with someone who is actively "trying".  So right from the get go we have the odds against us.  We know that it most likely won't happen on the first try, or the second or maybe the third.  But we are willing to put in the time and effort to have our own child. We have picked our sperm donor and now we have to wait.  The whole process is very exciting and stressful.  The prospect of having a child growing inside Cort makes me smile everytime I think about it. 

I just hope that I will be the kind of mother to our child as mine was to me. Unconditional love, comforting and sweet among many other things.